Day + 79 (March 11th, 2011)

Hi everyone,

well, that Friday came and went and and still I sat in the hospital. It wasn't until the middle of the next week that my prayers were answered and I was send packing. That was by far the most painful and frustrating stint I have ever had in the hospital. The walls seemed like they were closing in on me every day. I just couldn't deal with it for some reason. Regardless, that's all over now and I'm home.

it hasn't been that most enjoyable trip home though. From the first day I left I have been battling with some pretty brutal stomach nausea. One of the good things about being in the hospital is they can pump you with IV drugs to hide all of that stuff. At home you have to use meds which seldom really work so you are basically stuck dealing with it. I've tried them all too, and they seem to work sporadically. And when I say sporadically, I mean sporadically. Having this nausea really ruins just about everything. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't feel like going out, I quite honestly don't feel like doing anything. I just want to lay on the couch and watch tv. That way I can unplug from the rest of the world and deal with the nausea. Trust me, it's a crappy exhistence and it drives my crazy, but it's the way it is right now.

My weight is way down aound the 145 level and I can't seeem to get it to go up. I am eating three solid meals a day and for some reason it doesn't make a blip on the scales. I'm at least happy I have my appetite, but again, the stomach nausea affects that to the point when I'm really only eating partial meals, but that should still get me out of the 145 range.

Outside of that I am spending about 2-3 days per week n San Diego either meeting with doctors, getting some sort of test performed on me, or getting a supplement of some sort...Magnesium, Potassium, etc...

There are a lot of complaints here and there should be, life isn't all that great right now with these stomach pains, but in the grand scheme of things, I'm doing alright. I'm back home with my family, I'm breathing and walking and waking up every day so with all that said I'm doing alright. My goal now is to try to figure out what is going on with my stomach and fix it. We have run some pretty crazy tests in te few weeks to try to figure out what's going on and they all come back saying things look good. I guess thats a good thing but on some level I'd like to find something so we can address it.

Take care everyone and thank you for reading. One of the things that suffers as a result of this stomach pain I'm having, is updating this site. I'm serious when I say I really don't want to do anything, I'll try to be better at that because I do feel good once I do write. I hope you are all doing well and and I appreciate your support.